1. I always wanted to blog, it’s normally on top of my new years resolutions list. I tried it twice and failed… I have 2 blank blogs to prove it. It's not entirely blank, the one has 1 post and the other 3
2. I got married at 21. Got engaged after 1 month of dating and married 5 months later. You know when you know when you know
3. I never wanted to get married or have kids
4. I have 2 kids who I love with everything in me. You do not fully comprehend your ability to love until you have kids.
5. I love my job and I love working.
6. I’ve tried to commit suicide
7. I’m misunderstood
8. I find it hard to make friends
9. I judge people
10. I’m loud
11. I often talk before I think
12. I over think things
13. I regret things I’ve done but I don’t blame myself for it because if I could go back I would probably do it again. Although I hope that I would know better
14. I use smiley faces cause I don’t want people to take my comments to seriously because I don’t take myself too seriously. :-)
15. I love beer
16. I drink too much
17. I’m glad I failed with my suicide attempt
18. I’m immature and never want to grow up
19. I fantasized about dying at 21 because at 13 21 seemed old and I wanted to be forever young
20. Growing old I scares me. I sometimes wish I would die young but I also want to see my kids grow up. I want to be 28 forever.
21. I’m not sure if I want more children but the fact that I cannot have more saddens me.
22. I treat my dog like my child to fill the void.
23. No one knows the whole me, I managed to build quite a nice comfy wall around myself and I prefer it that way but sometimes it gets lonely
24. I only recently started talking to my dad again and found out that my mom lied to me. Growing up I thought he didn’t want to know me but she used me to get back at him.
25. I’m afraid of failure and it stops me from trying new things.
26. I love trying new things
27. I have an unhealthy relationship with food, I comfort eat and then starve myself as punishment.
28. I never considered any of my blue-eyed boyfriends as ‘a serious relationship’ because my mom once told me that she wanted a brown eyed grandchild. I craved her approval and knew that I had to marry a brown-eyed man if I wanted to have a brown-eyed baby boy. It was a gamble but it worked yet she prefers my sister’s blue-eyed children.
29. I procrastinate
30. By doing this list I hope to find an appropriate name for my blog
31. I have a lot of anger
32. I find falling in and out of love easier than choosing an outfit
33. I’m very indecisive. I wish I could say that once I put my mind to something it sticks but it doesn’t. I deliberate and when I finally put my mind to something I still feel I should have chosen the other option.
34. I’m a gadget girl
35. I was fired from a job once
36. My birthday make me sad
37. I think I’m allergic to fruit
38. I’m claustrophobic – I found it out the hard way
39. I’m also scared of heights –I sky dived a couple of times to overcome it but standing on top of a tall building still scares the shit out of me. I’m afraid that I’ll jump.
40. I’m very visual – not sure if that’s how you describe it but I visualise things, see the pictures in my mind when people tell me stuff, my friend told me about standing on top of a high building and I had a panic attack.
41. I have no idea what to blog about, I read other blogs and feel very intimidated but just realised that I will be able to use this list for a lot of posts
42. I want to be a better person
43. I lost my virginity at 16
44. I think I’m a good driver
45. I drive way to fast and I have the fines to prove it
46. Heroes is my favourite TV show
47. English is my second language and I often make up new words do describe things bettererer
48. I’m not a morning person
49. My favourite colour is blue but I recently discovered purple
50. Since I discovered MLIA I often find my thoughts starting with ‘Today… and ending with MLIA’
51. I spend way too much time in front of the computer
52. I don’t spend enough time with my family
53. I would rather cheat and win then not cheat and lose.
54. I refuse to say I’m sorry unless I really am.
55. I still sleep with a teddy bear
56. I was molested as a child and still blame myself
57. I’m embarrassed to be naked
58. I don’t cuddle after sex.
59. I’m a non-practicing Christian – another made up word I assume – I have a personal relationship with God but I do not go to church.
60. I’m easily offended
61. I hated high school, I would not conform to their rules and discipline
62. I never finished high school but I managed to get a degree. The university did an aptitude and IQ test and I scored so high that they decided to make and exception and overlook the fact that I didn’t finish high school.
63. After having a conversation I would replay it in my head and worry about all the things I said being misinterpreted
64. I’ve done kickboxing and got disqualified from a tournament because I stopped a fight and apologised to the girl for hitting her in her face. Apparently only the ref can stop a fight
65. I would love to own a gun
66. I think I would be able to kill someone if they made me really mad
67. I think I should never own a gun because of no 66
68. I’ve tried weed but it makes me sick and sleepy
69. I’m a good cook
70. I use humour to hide my insecurities
71. I don’t trust most people
72. I used to fantasize that I was adopted and that my real parents were out there searching for me
73. I’m rebellious
74. I will never tell anyone I know that I have a blog and I will close it down if they were to find out
75. I love Alanis Morisette – although her newer more happy stuff doesn’t really do it for me.
76. I’m totally into conspiracy theories
77. I love reading and I love books. I have too many books that I will never read again but I cannot bring myself to throw them away
78. When typing I always use Arial 10.
79. My friends know I will do anything for them.
80. I can do anything I set me mind to but I often forget this
81. I have a dolphin tattoo on my shoulder which I got on my 18th birthday, cause you have to be 18 to get a tattoo and I liked dolphins
82. My favourite saying is Don’t judge me
83. I love Google, I Google everything!
84. I think my husband deserves better, I haven’t told him it that many words but I know he would disagree and I’m grateful for that.
85. I am amazed at how much my adopted daughter resembles me and my biological son doesn’t
86. I loved the Twilight saga but felt they chose the wrong leading man… until yesterday when I actually watched the movie again – don’t judge me
87. I prefer chocolate to vanilla
88. I love postsecrets
89. I love Quentin Tarantino movies but I haven’t seen Inglorious Basterds because people I trust told me it’s crap and I know that I will not be able to deal with the disappointment
90. I have tried to convinced myself that I’m blogging for myself and it doesn’t matter if no one reads it… Myself is not convinced.
91. I don’t know what is worst, having someone read your most private thoughts or no one reading it.
92. I smoke and I’m terrified that I will die of cancer
93. I have been in an abusive relationship
94. My sister saved my life… twice
95. I never knew how hard it would be to write 100 things about myself
96. It took me 5 hours to compile this list.
97. I convinced Morning Live to invite my favorite band so that I could meet them in person.
98. I never finish anything...
I promise to finish this later...
Posts
No comments:
Post a Comment